A fresh start

We've had some tough but enheartening (if that's a word) discussions of late, and i think we've agreed to approach our coupled path with a new perspective. i feel better about wanting to submit yet not wanting to jeopardize what's important to me, and we have a new approach to potentially difficult situations.

It's not really new, but i think it's a different understanding. i was warned not to abuse things that could potentially conflict, but that option hadn't ever entered my mind. i think, instead, my reasoning - if used appropriately and communicated well - has been given more validity, if anything, and my heart feels lighter for that.

i've known all along that love was not the issue; nor was respect or a desire for the family to progress well and even prosper. But sometimes, somehow, that knowledge got clouded with almost a sense of dispair... the dispair is gone for now, and i hope with all my strength that it will not return.

Thank You, Sir, for taking the time and effort to talk with me; for not giving up on us or on getting through to me; for everything. i love You.